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Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
1:51 pm	Hyporeality I plant in you the meme of hyporeality, which I defined for myself over lunch. Hyporeality is the inverse of hyperreality. Hyper=over, hypo=under. Normally, LJ can be considered to be a hyperreal world, i.e., where things appear more real than they are, because they are re-told as one's subjective impression of reality. A hyporeal world would consist of nothing but mundane boring fragments with no purpose, re-told as the un-filtered sensory feedback from a de-humanized person. No doubt, someone already wrote books about all this. Pointers, or better definitions, appreciated. In the spirit of hyporeality: Fingers cold and hurt from typing. Creaking noises from the window. Smell of sweat. Need to take a leak. White LJ input field framed by black monitor borders. Sounds of keyboard knatter. Current Music: random noise (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
7:51 pm	Playing with auto-focus servo. With a professional skateboarder. He's fast. No symbolism. Merely to document progress for future self. Samuel Becket's Krapp's Last Tape again... Later: For the sad remote possibility that Krapp's Last Tape is not part of everyone's literary canon, and to cater my own indulgence, here is an excellent synopsis: Krapp's Last Tape is a play that expresses how society causes people to become the cause of their own isolation and loneliness. In this play the main character is Krapp. Krapp is an isolated man who has found comfort in planning out his life and reflecting and justifying his past faults. Because he is in seclusion Krapp interacts with recordings of self conversations he had created years before. In these tapes Krapp finds some form of comfort. He feels justified in cutting people out of his life, due to the fact that he has a higher purpose, which is not directly expressed. Through out the play we gradually unfold the events that have led Krapp to this state and we see how he became the man that he is. ( +2 ) Current Music: Bauhaus: In The Flat Field: Small talk stinks (3 Comments |Comment on this)
2:24 am	Leftovers ( +10 ) Current Music: Schubert: Winterreise: Der greise Kopf (13 Comments |Comment on this)
1:36 am	Fence ( +5 ) Current Music: Luigi Cherubini: Offertorium (9 Comments |Comment on this)
1:14 am	Arche ( +5 ) Current Music: Verdi: Messa da Requiem: Dies Irae (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 16th, 2005
10:03 pm	Out camera&head walking tonight. CF card full, head less so. Realized I had been out walking for 4 hours when HagaDeli was about to close when I came home. Lovely bartender keep flirting. Among other things, I decided the theme I want my pictures to have. Or rather, need to have, for now. Mental landscapes. Back to high-school drawing classes. Current Mood: ... Current Music: Tchaikovsky: Pathetique (3 Comments |Comment on this)
10:33 am	Supermarket Bonus Cards As Religion The other day I used my supermarket bonus card for the first time. Doing so made me feel like I had a Volvo, a dog, a wife, a house, and five screaming toddlers. It is the small things that changes you. I believe supermarket bonus cards is one of the more refined tools in the hands of The Evil One. The bonus cards are part of the plot to break down people, and make them forget about what is important in life. Once tangled up in the intricacies of the bonus card system, you no longer question why there is a bonus system. Your mind wither away. Further, the system breeds fundamentalists, who live as slaves under the bonus system, purchasing only what maximize hir bonus points and what will utilize coupons. You become a worshipper of the Holy Supermarket. Using the coupon redeem you from sin. Replying Yes I have a bonus card is the Sacred Mantra of the herd. The bonus card is your proof of belonging. Protect it with your life. It will grant you instant access to a network of other Worshippers. Or worshoppers. But I digress. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Fluke: Risotto: Kitten Moon (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 15th, 2005
8:41 pm	I have gradually come to realize that self's pictures suck. Each new set I take have, in my perception, been worse than the previous set. Need to break negative spiral. I acquired manikin. Here's hoping S won't be upset by tying it down. ( +3 ) Current Mood: despair Current Music: Adolphson & Falk: Just a machine (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 14th, 2005
2:22 pm	Half-marathon Pre: No running for two weeks, and before that nothing. Strained my leg doing StepUp at the gym the other day. Movie night, with beer&wine. Stayed up 'til around 3am. Watched Annie Hall on telly while stuffing myself with chocolate. Finished wine bottle. Barely any sleep. Had the most vivid dreams in weeks. People I knew from my child-hood, teens and present time were gossiping. Everyone laying in my old flatmate's bed. All told perfect psychological descriptions of each other, part of which I hadn't been conscious of before. Then it turned into my usual dream-theme. S called at 10am and said he was running. Me still half-asleep in bed, prepared to spend the rest of the day in bed, no intention to run the pre-paid race whatsoever. No breakfast, no shower, directly to Rållis. Post: Finished the half-marathon, probably around or below 2 hours. Can't walk. Spring day. People in the streets. Words can't express its wonderfulness. Later: 1:58:41. Below 2 hours. Whee. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Shower sounds (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 13th, 2005
11:47 pm	Wine Domaine Pero Longo (vin de Corse) 2002 (Nielluccio Sciaccarello/Vermentino): Simple pleasant wine. No need for food to be enjoyable. Became slightly dull together with food. Definitely worth the €12 I paid on Corse for it. 3++/5. Vin de Pays d'Oc 2001 (Syrah): Tried it after having 1.5 glasses of the previous wine, so my judgement may be clouded. Still, since it is a Syrah, and there was nothing wrong with it, I'm sold. 4++/5. A drawer full of chocolate and Annie Hall on the telly. Half-marathon in the morning. Current Mood: sad Current Music: Marilyn Manson: Cake and Sodomy (Comment on this)
2:57 pm	Feeling tired and slow today. Fantastic day; me walked through town, taking pictures, eating ice-cream and chatting. Alas, sister is definitely moving to Lund. Loss. Thinking Barcelona or Rome. Or just drive around in Europe to meet Interesting People. ( +2 ) Current Mood: drowsy Current Music: Neneh Cherry: Trouble Man (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 12th, 2005
11:34 pm	Sad indecision. Which one of the following two images is more interesting? Why? What would you want to change (photoshop-wise) in the picture to the right? Ditto for left? What should I really be taking pictures of? ( +2 ) Current Mood: quizzy Current Music: Tricky: Maxinquaye: Feed Me (5 Comments |Comment on this)
11:27 pm	Last night's worth. ( +3 ) Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Tricky: Maxinquaye: Overcome (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
4:13 pm	How come board meetings with an ethnologist and an economist always tend to fall apart into discussion about how cultural background is reflected in language, and how the nominal interest rate is actually higher today than it was in the 80s? Still, highly enjoyable. And there was dessert. Current Mood: sad Current Music: Moby: Why Does My Heart Feel So Bad (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
9:37 pm	Heh Loading WLAN module: May 10 21:11:03 dopio kernel: hostap_cs: Registered netdevice wlan0 My laptop: May 10 21:11:59 dopio kernel: wlan0: 00:11:22:33:44:55 auth_cb - STA authenticated Someone else: May 10 21:33:33 dopio kernel: wlan0: 00:0d:ea:db:ee:f0 auth_cb - STA authenticated So it took 20 minutes before someone else logged onto my wireless network and started surfing. Must be my superior ISP skills who attracted them, only two out of the five typically visible wireless networks around here are open, and only one other provide IPv6 connectivity. (In case you wonder why I noticed this, my wlan has been down for months because I haven't needed it, and tonight I was bored enough to bring it online.) What are they up to? May 10 21:37:03 dopio dnsmasq[2416]: reply www.meetic.com is 62.23.30.25 May 10 21:41:33 dopio dnsmasq[2416]: reply login.passport.com is 65.54.179.198 May 10 21:41:47 dopio dnsmasq[2416]: reply rad.msn.com is 207.68.178.16 May 10 21:41:56 dopio dnsmasq[2416]: reply www.eniro.se is 80.69.226.133 I should redirect all queries to goat.cx. May 10 21:47:15 dopio kernel: wlan0: disassociation: 00:0d:ea:db:ee:f0 len=2, reason_code=1 I must have scared them typing this. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Sneaker Pimps: Becoming X: Post-modern Sleaze (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 9th, 2005
11:28 pm	Photo dinner in kitchen. ( +6 ) Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Depeche mode: Stripped (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 8th, 2005
10:33 pm	My taste in music is too large to fit into the confined spaces of the "Music" LJ input field. Re last post. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Dusty Springfield: The Windmills Of Your Mind (3 Comments |Comment on this)
9:54 pm	On Communication (memento to future self) On the flight back home, I entertained self by thinking about communication. The inter-human kind. Why is it that we [1] are unable to get the message we want across? How come the meaning of what we say is lost between words spoken? How come we take out communication failures on ourselves? Why do we stumble around over attempts to make up for past misunderstandings? Why do we proliferate half-truths? Once tangled up in half-truths, those half-truths will eventually become a truth, because "ultimately we are the stories we are telling ourselves". After all, expressing and sharing thoughts is, I believe, primarily done to reinforce your own perception of the world. Fütter mein ego, etc. When you start to deceive, you may become unsure what the truth is; is the truth the things we said, or the things we thought while saying the opposite? Uncertainty strikes. We expressed something we didn't actually think, and received confirmation for it. Aren't your expressed, and confirmed, opinions, what constitute the truth? A problem with human communication is that only one of your many competing thought patterns are expressed. If you get confirmation for what you expressed, you suppress the other thoughts. Other thoughts, which may have been more representative of the truth. Also, the physical proximity of someone, with body language and whatnot, further complicate communication, and act as a filter for which thoughts you chose to express. Ahem. To further the amusement of any remaining reader, I thought I'd share something from my real diary, written about mid-february. For me, it express this theme in a way I am now able to comprehend. ( Read more... ) [1] "We" as in "I". Current Mood: lapsang Current Music: Brooklyn Funk Ess.: TheRevolutionWasPostponedBecauseOfRain (Comment on this)
9:11 pm	For my cafe slash art gallery in Lund (which is coming along nicely, at least the architects have started talking to the government about getting permits to rebuild the houses) I'm so going to exhibit art like this. Only problem is finding some schmucks to run the place for me. Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Apoptygma Berzerk: 7: Non-Stop Violence (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 7th, 2005
5:18 pm	Home In my own sweet precious bed again. Copenhagen sightseeing below. ( +3 ) Current Mood: content Current Music: Gang of four: We live as we dream, alone (5 Comments |Comment on this)